Sunday, December 27, 2009

The Way Things Are

I haven't posted in awhile, and I apologize. I guess I was reluctant to write this all out at such a special time of year. No one wants to receive bad news at Christmas. But I'm realizing that there just isn't any good time to deliver bad news.

Jeff had an MRI scan on December 10 to determine whether or not the treatment has been working. On the 17th, Jeff's oncologist at the Cleveland Clinic told us that leukemia had not responded. Not only that, but the MRI showed significant progression into the cranial nerves, brainstem and spinal cord.

I sat motionless, trying to absorb the conversation that followed. There is nothing left to be done, medically-speaking. But we're still praying for a miracle and for time. Jeff hasn't got much left.

We decided to tell the kids right away, only because drawing it out makes it that much harder. Kids can sense when something is going on, and we didn't want them to feel like they were the last to know. Please, keep them in your prayers.

That's the way things are around here for now.

And in the midst of this storm, there is still peace--an unmistakable presence of the Holy Spirit. I was reading a passage of Scripture today about the work of the Holy Spirit. It's in Romans 8, verse 26, and it says "the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered." This passage is teaching that the Holy Spirit prays for our infirmities--our sicknesses. That is such a blessed truth to me right now because I cannot tell you how many times I have started to pray and could not find words. I hope that truth encourages you as well.


Drew said...

You are a blessing. I think of your family constantly and you are continually in my prayers.

This DVM's Wife's Life said...

This is not fair. I hate cancer. I so wish I could reach out to you and hug you and your family. Please know you are receiving many prayers from Northern Mi. God bless you all.

Plattner Ranch said...

What can one say when it is so clear that you have the greatest comforter of all! You are such a blessing to me. I am still praying for you!

Betsy from Tennessee said...

Adrienne, I can only hope that "I" will have as much faith as you have if and when I experience something such as this. When I lost my parents, I clung closely to God--and that helped.. But--we are still human and can be weak. I am SO proud of you.

I'm praying hard for Jeff--and for you and the children. I'm glad you have a great church family who are there for you. May God Bless ALL of you.

Love the Family pictures (below).

Much Love and HUGS and PRAYERS,

SaraG said...

We will be keeping you, Jeff and your children in our thoughts and prayers!

deejbrown said...

Adrienne: Trust that we will be praying when you cannot.... The net is beneath you, Jeff and your children.

Kerri said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I am so very sorry that this is happening.

Snap said...

Adrienne: I am thinking about you, Jeff and your children ... keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. We are just starting our fight against cancer -- three weeks into the chemo and radiation pre surgery. It is a fight.

Blessings to you. Wishing you well.

Misty Dawn said...

Adrienne, my friend, I have not 'known' you long, but I feel like I've known you for years. You are such a wonderful spirit and an inspiration. I know there is nothing I can say to make things easier or make it 'better', so I won't even try. I will just send out my prayers, my heart, my love, and my virtual hugs.

Widow_Lady302 said...

You will be in my thoughts and prayers. You and I have a lot in common...We are both in ohio, I took my husband to the Cleveland Clinic, we both find peace in writing, and our faith. If I have any advice at all, it is do not be afraid of Hospice. Miracles can and do still happen, even while in Hospice. It doesn't mean giving up, lacking faith, or letting your beloved down. I've walked the path of terminal cancer with my Baby (husband) Nothing brings more peace than knowing that they will not suffer, if it is God's will they go home to him. Much love, and my prayers are with you.

Corner Gardener Sue said...

My heart goes out to you. I am so sorry about the news. I have been praying, and will continue to. Yes, the Holy Spirit does pray for us when we need that.