Monday, January 3, 2011

A New Year, A New Normal

Jeff’s service was beautiful and uplifting.  I think it was everything he wanted it to be, and I’m thankful for the conversations we had to plan it, as hard as that was at the time.

The kids are holding up marvelously and started back to school today.  The guidance counselor at each school contacted me today to assure me that they are looking out for their well-being and will be available for whatever needs might arise.  It is good to know.  I want my kids to feel like they have a safe place to go if they start feeling overwhelmed during the day.  I wish I could protect them from that, but I know that isn’t realistic.  And probably not healthy, either.

While they were at school, my parents came over and helped me put away all the Christmas decorations.  I usually feel wistful about putting Christmas away, but it felt good today.  I need to take back my house.  *chuckle*  It’s a bit of a mess.

I have been accumulating paperwork, too.  And that will be addressed tomorrow.  Lots of forms to fill out, accounts to notify, health insurance applications to complete.  I’ve put that off long enough.  But I know I’ll feel better once that is all taken care of.

Then I can get back to just being a mom.  Planning meals.  Doing laundry.  Packing lunches.  Making the library run.  Dusting. 

~well,

Maybe I can put the dusting off a little longer. 

:)

14 comments:

Leslie said...

God has made you into an amazing woman. I admire you for your strength and love. In my thoughts and prayers.

Leslie

next time I'm home i would love to get together and go out and chat.

lifebythecreek said...

Truly, His grace is sufficient, Adrienne. And it's pretty amazing, too, especially when I see that verse being lived out through you. Not only has God prepared a place for Jeff in Heaven, but you've allowed Him to prepare a place to dwell in your heart. And while that won't take away the Jeff-sized hole, it WILL fill it... and it will be sufficient. Love you, my friend... you are a special woman of God.

Betsy from Tennessee said...

Oh Adrienne, You are such an inspiration to all of us... I am so proud of you. Jeff would want you to go on with life--especially for the children--which you are doing. God Bless You ---and your wonderful family and friends.

Hugs and Continued Prayers,
Betsy

heidiannie said...

Good.
You have chosen to follow a very good path. Doing the things that are important, returning to what you do best and protecting your children, allowing those who love you to help, continuing on with the life God has given you.
I'm praying that you can walk each day in the strength of the Lord as you discover your own strength.
Vaya con Dios!
Go with God!

Plattner Ranch said...

Dusting is overrated anyway! ;)

New Year Blessings to you!

Sue said...

Continuing to pray for you and your dear family. So thankful that His grace truly is sufficient.

PS-Dusting is highly overrated!!

JKoenig said...

I appreciate your humor in the midst of your pain (dusting gives me with the same feeling). I understand too the feeling of wanting to get your life back into some orderly fashion while there is this "mound" of things that need to be taken care of. You and your young ones are in my prayers.

Summer said...

Adrienne,

I hope you don't mind me saying this, but there is something comforting about reading your heart through this trial. My grandmother just passed away from cancer this past Wednesday and loss at this time of year is difficult. But I like what you said that Christmas is a season...not just a day. Thank you for sharing your journey and I will be praying for your family.

-Summer

Oak in the Seed said...

Routine can be dulling but it can also be a step to a different kind of life. I run away from routine sometimes but then embrace it later for the mindless comfort it can offer and the opportunity to get through the day without having to think too hard.
So maybe save the dusting when you need a little more routine--it just might save you!

Cathy said...

Still praying for you and your family.

Snap said...

Adrienne,

I just learned of Jeff's passing. My heart aches for you and your beautiful family. We are facing the same and have entered hospice care. Getting all the ducks in order and trying to smile, laugh and love. Laundry and dusting is good!!!!!

Prayers, hugs and dragon vibes!!!!

~ Amy Elisabeth Photography ~ said...

You sound upbeat after these past weeks, months...I am so glad for that. I can hear it in your writing.
It is relieving to hear your kids are doing well, adjusting as hard as it is. You are surrounded by such a huge network of people who care for you and your family and are on the lookout for you at all times.
That in itself is such a comforting feeling. Hugs to you!

Splendid Little Stars said...

Adrienne~
I am just now reading your last several posts. I feel saddened...
You certainly radiate grace for this journey you are on. Hugs and prayers and blessings to you and your family.
May memories of Jeff be treasures in your lives.
♥ Margaret

Corner Gardener Sue said...

Hi Adrienne,
I was thinking about you the other day, wondering when I'd last been to your blogs. I said a prayer for you. I hate it that Jeff had to suffer the way he did, but I'm glad he is no longer in pain, and is in heaven.

That Chapman song expresses his grief at the loss of one of his daughters well, doesn't he? God helps us comfort others with the comfort we've received from Him.

Have you given any more thought of putting your posts into a book? I'm thinking you may be blessed by it as well as others going through similar situations.

Let us know how things are going.

God bless!