This is something I’ve been dreading. While I desperately want to know if the radiation and chemotherapy have helped, I am frightened at the possibility that the news might be that the lesion has grown. Will an MRI be able to show the difference between the inflammation that the chemo obviously causes and an actual change in the size of the lesion? I don’t know.
I’m afraid to know.
And yet, I do need to know. The doctors need to know, of course. Is the treatment working? Do we need to be more aggressive? Is he ever going to see clearly again? Questions, questions, questions…
The uncertainty is enough to make me crazy. And when I start feeling that way, I remember that God sees clearly and knows everything that lies ahead. I can trust His goodness even when I don’t understand His plans.
Praying for good news from Monday’s MRI and for a smooth procedure on Tuesday for treatment #4.